So I have come to the conclusion that I am getting to be burnt out. I hate to admit it but I have to at some point or I will lose it. After over 3 years of being in the house 5 days a week straight I am going crazy. Having one car is hard but Brandon needs to go to work and that means that the kids and I can't leave the house. The winter has been taking a toll on all of us and it is not healthy for any of us.
That being said I have decided that I am going to take Yoga classes and do a Workout Boot Camp! A new fitness center opened up about 10 minutes down the road so I don't need to travel far and the prices aren't that bad either. I need to have my own time where I'm not with the kids and am doing something for myself. I also need to get healthier not just for my sake but the kids as well. I think Brandon might even take the Boot camp too, in which case we would switch off doing the 8 week sessions. We need to come to an agreement where we schedule time to do things for ourselves and things as a family. I am also going to have Rowen and probably Corbin take swim lessons there as well. They also need to get out of the house and do some sort of activity. They need to socialize with other children and have some time apart. They are constantly fighting and just going plain nuts being stuck inside.
The fitness center is nice because you don't have to have a membership to be able to take classes there, it just cost a little more which is not bad compared to having to pay a monthly fee for the membership and the classes on top of that. We don't have "extra money" that will make it easy. We just need to prioritize what we are spending our money on an I think that mental and physical health and activities for the kids is worth it and what needs to be done. We will have to do some changing of our "normal" schedule with errands and such but as the kids get older and different things need to be done our schedule will always be changing and we will just all have to adjust. Since we do all our errands and stuff on the weekend because I can't go out during the week to do things it is going to be challenging to fit more stuff in.
I LOVE my kids, they are my world!!! But even when you have a job you get a break. I feel bad anytime I go out for an hour or something and I'm not spending that time with them but then I think about the mothers who do work and spend even less time with their children and that I shouldn't feel about about having me time but yet I still do. I somehow need to get over that.
Now that the kids are pretty much on the same schedule and all on table foods we have been eating dinner together and it has been very nice. The boys really love it! It is challenging to get dinner ready without Brandon here to entertain the kids while cook. Because we all know that that is the time where they have their melt downs, are under foot, whining and are just done.